Let your Anger Roar (with journal therapy and release practice)
We all have felt it, the bubbling of rage, the frustration, the resentment yet we silence it, we push it down by gritting our teeth and getting on with it.
We then hold onto that anger, we feel it bubbling away beneath the surface constantly, we feel the heat, the triggers, the pressure and steam, we try to contain it until we can't no more.
I hold a lot of anger and resentment, I hold onto past pain and it's something I'm still working on, I've held onto the anger of losing my dad, not being heard as teen with a chronic illness, not being emotionally held as a child (or adult), I've resented people and how they treated me, I've been angry at myself for letting myself be treated badly, for regrets and my own frustrations of life.
It's normal, life is painful.
I learnt to silence my rage from a young age, I wasn't free to express my pain and anger, that it was bad, that I was crazy, naughty, stupid for letting my anger roar. I was mad at not being taken seriously, misunderstood and the more I was told to calm down and the more my anger wasn't heard, the more my anger screamed. My anger, my pain, my feelings were ignored.....I didn't want to be calm, I didn't want to talk quietly about it, I wanted to let it all out but instead I kept it quiet. I kept it contained, I smiled even though I felt the burn of rage under my skin..and it hurt me..liver issues, throat issues, jaw issues and muscle pain, even now the anger is still strong, creating this pressure in my chest of pure anger and pain of the past, of not being heard or not being held, this is the midst of me healing my abandonment wound, the pain and hurt of my inner little girl and inner teenager. I am learning to release it safely but like all healing it isn't quick or easy.
Maybe you feel the same?
